Merdeka???!!! Does not exist in my vocabulary.

My business proposal is on the way. It is just.. I have struck a mind-freeze at the moment. Suddenly, I do not know what to write in the proposal. Having never obtain any form of business qualification, I squeeze every ideas and thoughts out. BLANK.

Now.I am waiting upon Him to give me some ideas. He did before. Now I needed somemore.

Meanwhile, I managed to post a new post because I am FINALLY having the chance to just laze around at home.

What a privellege to be a bum for one day. I haven't felt so relax since things took the fast lane.

Looking back. I realized ever since I joined HSG, life has really been on the fast lane for me. Not that I am complaining. Not that I don't like it. I actually appreciate what God has done. I am actually lazy by nature. But after being in HSG and receiving all those amazing revelations. I cannot be a BUM anymore. My life. My choice to live it to the best.

So..it is at moments like these (National Day today = Public Holiday) that I can finally take a rest and "slither" around the house like a snake. LOL!

Oh..I miss the countdown for Merdeka. Why? Frankly...let's say I don't feel patriotic lately. Hasn't feel it since what...many years ago but it only intensifies this year. Malaysia, a beautiful country. I love the food. I love our holidays. I love our malls. I love how regular we have big sales. I love how I can spend my money buying cheap discounted branded items.

What I don't love? Racism and corruption. This year. It intensifies. It balloons up. My anger rises when I got to know the government plans to implement a 4% sales tax to non-edible goods and services. What does that means? It means I need to pay a freaking 4% next year for the clothes I buy..the shoes..the make-up...the...the... I need to kick those government's butts!! They think money grow on trees?

I hate corruption. If we pay taxes..and life in this country improves. We see projects for the benefits or the rakyat. We see good roads. We see better prices in goods. We have non-ridiculously  expensive government buildings and istanas. Then, I donit mind paying taxes. For now, the taxes are use to feed the corrupted.

They are grateful I am a Christian. Hmrrphh!!! I know my God will bring down the corrupted and the broad-day light pencuri. Yeah. You corrupts will face justice one day. If it is not in this life. Then your afterlife. It will be ugly.

I am proud I had registered myself as a voter. For you Malaysians, please do the right thing and register. Enough is enough. I cannot sit here and complain. I exercise my right. I am so gonna stick by opposition like glue.

There.I have rant and pent my anger. I had abused my keyboard. Gonna sign off! And no.. I will not sign off with "Merdeka!" or "Happy Birthday, Malaysia". I would have 10 years ago. Now. I don't feel very "merdeka".

Dewan Pustaka should have change the meaning of "merdeka" in the dictionary. It is a joke to hear it shouted out at 12am on 31st August 2010.

Of plans,works & God's goodness

Hey peeps! Won't be posting so soon from now. Well, not unless I get my business proposal done. Did I just bold them? Hahaha.

God indeed is good and always have been. This could be a God-given opportunity. I have found and will be meeting with a potential investor for my business sometime this week or next. Which explains the delay postings and what-will be my next few days'  'affair' with Microsoft Office Powerpoint. LOL.

Works aside. I just discover that my postings are full of grammatical and typo error! Oh, the horrors! I was baffled. It wasn't me. It is my fingers. Too fast on the keyboard. Muahahaha.. I know. The 'peribahasa', "Tidak tahu menari, kata lantai berjongkang-jangket" clearly implies here. LOL. I have to make sure there are no such embarrassment display when I present my business proposal.

Another woots would be...I am going to Cambodia next April! Like I said, God is good. Now, I would just need to save money to spend there since stuff there are in USD. O.o

Had a cute episode today with my little 4 year old student. Was introducing him music composers. And when I point to a cartoon man with curly hair and said:

"Beethoven. This is Beethoven.He is a very famous composer."

Little student smiled at me. "No, teacher. That's Michael Jackson!"

Teacher bewildered and covered with laughing fits, calmly said. "No. It's Beethoven,my dear."

Little student said, "No. It's Michael Jackson.Michael Jackson got curly hair."

Then I said, "No no. This is Beethoven.He also has curly hair. Look at his suit. People only wear that kind of suit a long, long time ago."

Student. "Then it's Michael Jackson in a suit! Teacher. Do you know Michael Jackson died already?"

Teacher : ..........*speechless*

Ah...children. Such innocence. Marvelous gifts God created. Sometimes, I think that children are the real teachers. :-D

Of many what-ifs

Excuse me for being fickle-minded.

Yeah, I know it is a new background. I have a reason to do it. I do not know if I would actually cry while typing this. I am not going to Siem Reap, Cambodia aymore next year.


Plans cancelled.I was so close to one of my dream locations! The flights are cheap, the hotel is cheap, the tour..ok. Not very cheap. But still it's an 8 hour tour. Full day Angkor Wat. At RM 158 per person. *cries*

Plans cancelled due to my parents..who are non-believers by the way, insist that they have to go clear up the ancestor graves and offer prayers. According to them, the "cheng beng" is clashing with the dates I planned. Second reason. My parents are in the middle of renovating our new house. Insufficient funds  to have the whole family going together. Then my dad and me (yes, I am a 100% daddy's girl) said that we could go together. My mum was not happy about it.

So, yeah. Plans cancelled.

I was very,very close to tears.

I spent 2 days. 2 DAYS!! My face inches from the screen. Plotting. Planning. Scheming for cheaper flight tickets. Align the departure and arrival time nicely. Hunt the hotels. Get the cheaper tour. All because I was encouraged by my father. He gave me the green light. His exact words were, "If ok, book la."

Imagine how frustrated I am after everything tears up.

To be honest. I never particularly like family trips. When especially in my case. I have 2 younger brothers that needs to tag along and can't pay for anything. I gave up. It is my last straw and a white flag I am hanging. I will    never, NEVER, EVER, plan any vacations for my family.

I have exhausted all my energy.

I prefer travelling in small groups and in groups were especially you don't need to worry about money. Every man for himself. I thought bout asking Josh. And no. Financials tight. *sigh*

I so need a travelling buddy!!!  Pleaasseeeee..anyone interested. Sign up. Interview me! I am fun! And very engaging.

It will take awhile for me to recover from this...You have no idea how close you are to your dream and then, poof! It buh-bye to you. Air Asia better have another promotion.

I am very determine to go to an international location every year to basically, give myself a break.

Right now, I guess the temple ruins of Angkor Wat will have to wait.

*blogger went off to sob and indulge in some other matters that are lighter to the heart*

Flying, baby!

Yes. Quite literally.

I have decided. I will reward myself with an international holiday destination once, every year. I owe it to myself after some hard work

My mental and physical state implore, beg and grovel at any chance of rest.

I have therefore, decided to obey.

Question. Where to go? I thought about Hong Kong. Mainly because it is only RM389 to and fro. It was RM241. But due to some of my friends indecisiveness..and the dilly-dallying of days and the case of oh-i-am-so-interested-but-you-ask-who and who-they-want-to-go-or-not. The nest day I checked. Prices went up to RM389. Nevertheless, still cheap.

Now. Another case would be my father's suggestion of a family trip and also one of my dream travels. Siem Reap,Cambodia. What's there? One of the 7th wonder of the worlds. A UNESCO heritage site.

The Angkor Wat.


Majestic ruins. Breathtaking sceneries. And one of the scenes of Lara Croft, Tomb Raider. Yes. The one that have Angelina Jolie running around in short pants, guns on both hands and a long pig-tail.

Faraway snap shot of the temples

The infamous scene in Lara Croft : Tomb Raider

                                        

Or..........I could opt for Hong Kong. Well, it's not exactly in my list of Places-I-Want-To-Go. But, there's Hong Kong Disneyland..Though I would rather go Florida's. They have Harry Potter's Land there!!! If only US currency would drop. But then..Not a good idea. US economy drop = Recession.

I guess...Cambodia wins. RM476 per person. Inclusive of flight, night stay (3 nights) and breakfast. Pretty good offer. Only setback is that I would need to go KL for the flight.

Absurd. Penang is so much nearer. There are no direct flights to Siem Reap from Penang. I would need to go down and come back up again.. Grrrr...

I saw, I came, I conquered

Dreams.

I believe everyone is born extraordinary. How true it is that as we grew in this twisted, negative world that we dropped the E and the X, the T, R, A and.....we became ordinary. Just like everyone else. Bound to work hard for the rest of their life, slaving away and still..facing financial problems.

The world has changed. Back then. Things were cheaper. Graduates need not pay study loans. Now, as a graduate, graduates..he probably needs to settle his study loan, and if he got a car..a car loan..if he works outstation..his house rent and food etc. etc. It is no wonder that people are getting married later in life!

I decided right then and there. I have to be different. Like the post title says. I saw my dreams.. I will design plans for my dreams and I will conquered them. I want to work hard now and enjoy my fruits of labor later on in life.

God has been good. And to see how far I came. I am really blessed. I thank God for the environment He placed me in. Because right then and there. I could grow. I thank God that bad things happened to me in the past. It caused me to be more mature and have a different mindset at and early age.

My life has been amazing. It is not an easy walk. It wasn't Dorothy walking down the yellow brick road.

The best of my life has yet to come. This is my one shot at life. And I am gonna make it happen.

I have determined that my life will be an impact to multitudes of people and I am determined to be a success in this life and a multi-millionaire for God's Kingdom.

Yes, laugh all you want at that proclamation. Watch me. Don't be surprised when it happens.

I am ready to fly.

Of early morning greviances

Woke up today with a sprained neck and two muscle-pulled legs.

I practically had to get up, very carefully and check if I wreck my bed to pieces.

I did not.

So then, HOW ON EARTH DID I END UP SPRAINED EVERYWHERE?!

I dragged myself to Mr Aw's class and kicked myself mentally for not revisioning before coming. He threw most questions in my way; since I was absent last week (couldn't wake up for his 11.30am class in Seberang Prai because the previous day, I had just came back from KL with a major headache). I stumbled at my answers for his French, German and Italian chords. I couldn't answered his questions about 'passing chords' nor 'cadential chords' eithier. Yes, major hung over. Not to mention, the sprained in my neck is really killing me.

These past few weeks been hectic. My schedule changed so frequently and not to mention, I have to dealt with some emotionally drainning issues, which I have decided to let it go. I thought I need a treat and a short tiny break.

I treat myself to Winter Warmers. One of my favourite eateries.. Had their delicious fettucine cabonara..Yummy. It was heavenly delicious.

Due to me splurging on lunch, I made-up by saving for dinner. Dinner was only RM 3.00. Yup.

No matter. I encourage myself that my better and great days are ahead of me. For it is written in the scriptures that those who take care of God's business, will be greatly rewarded and that God will take care of them. I held on to that.

Watched "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" with Josh tonight. Realized that, hey! Despite it's title..It's actually not a bad movie. Quite hillarious. I don't particulary like "school-themed movies". But this one is well...slighty a little bit different. I like the part where Greg put the kids in the construction box or hole or whatever it is..LOL.

I am going to attempt to wake up for a jog tommorow. Let's hope my attempt would not be futile..It is impossible to separate me and my bed in the mornings. I am going to challenge that statement..

Cheers, people.

Discounted retails everywhere...It's madness!

Love them. Adore them.

With no budget to splurge or purchase any items for myself this month. I have come to help myself by blogging about them and the items I so wish would just fall from the sky. Of course, it did not happen. An unfortunate incident.

I need to save. Badly. Like on a scale of 1 to 10. It would be 10.5.

I even resorted to leaving my shiny rectangular cards at home and had actually very sternly tell my boyfriend to keep my ATM cards. He is not to hand it to me unless I can give him 5 reasons why I need to use it. Every time I walked to a mall and saw all those HUGE discounts, I mentally rehearsed. *I don't need those.* Every time I am tempted to buy anything at all. I told myself. 5 REASONS. I need to give myself  5 reasons why I need to purchase it.

Laugh all you want. It ain't easy. Especially for those shopaholics.

How am I surviving?? Good. So far I am ok. I did not go into a stupor. I manage to resist buying that Olay Anti-Ageing Eye Serum and a Revlon lipstick yesterday, saving me an amount of RM80 plus. However, it's hard to say. It's after all, only 5th of August. I have faith. Faith is good.

So, officially of this date, I declare I am now anti-shopping malls. I shall lock myself indoors and ban all shopping mall trips. Which is why, probably, you would find me occasionally venting my pent-up frustration here on not being able to get my hands on anything fabric, fashionably cut and sewn.

SALT

No. I did not mean the white substance in a tiny glass bottle in my kitchen. I meant Angeline Jolie running around New York screaming, "It wasn't me! I am not a Russian spy!"

Sorry if it sounds exaggerated. Seriously, I was slightly disappointed at the movie. I was expecting more. Of course, Angelina is gorgeous as always. She looks gorgeous while jumping truck to truck and gorgeous while snapping some guys elbows and hands. No offense, Angelina lovers! I do think Angelina truly is a beautiful woman and that she is a great actress.. After all, she won an Oscar.

I think the movie is over-rated. Most of the action are in the trailer. I felt that they should have twist the ending more and be more creative. It's probably 7/10. Extra 2 points because I love Angelina's sexy lips and she looks great in black hair!

I wish *SPOILERS ALERT* that they didn't kill her husband.I like the guy. It was so sweet of him (who I bet you does not even knows how to shoot -he studies spiders) to went all the way (petition here and there to the US Government) to get her out of North Korea when it is made clear to her character, Evelyn Salt, that once she is caught, it is all over.

Now that the fuss about SALT is all over, I am screaming next.... Harry Potter & the Deathly  Hallows. Couldn't wait. Not entirely a big fan. But love the idea and the fantasy around it! I love fantasy related stuff.. :-D

Just did some calculations. Turns out, I could not save as much as I thought. But, I am grateful that unlike many people who are jobless outside, I DO have a job and I DO have a roof over my head. I keep my hopes high and know my great days are ahead of me. The best has yet to come...Amen.   *running off to close my account for today*

A new chapter

Yes. I thought it the title is rather cliche. However, I could not think of a better one to describe what I am to post.

1st of August was a new mark for me and speak many milestones in my life. It was the commissioning of me as a Carecell Leader. Man, what a huge privilege! I was beaming so brightly that it is a wonder I had not set the stage on fire. LOL !

Here's the entire team. Watch out! We are out to make history for Jesus!

2nd of August. I slept like a rock. It was a long journey back after the trip down to KL. I felt since it is a new chapter of my life and a new quarter of the year 2010. I thought it is time I get some things done. I am never the one to be very organized. I only aspired to be. This time I am determined to get it done.

My List :

1. Since I am moving to a new house. I need to get rid of some clutters. And there's HUGE clutters in my room. So, I am gonna organized some stuff and pack away and SELL SOME STUFF AWAY ONLINE. We are talking clothes. Heaps of them. Most worn once or twice. And books.Watch out for that. It'll be like a garage sale. But online, you know? Real cheap. *hints*

2. FINALLY HAVE A TIME TABLE.Geez, my schedule is so flexible that I have different time tables every month. Sometimes, my schedule change weekly. I felt so disoriented.

3. SAVE MONEY. My account is seriously in lack but I know my God is all powerful and with His strength I can resist the evils of retail shopping. God has been very good to me and I am blessed with more and more financials every month. Amazing!! However, I want to save more.Darn, just got a new pair of shoes

4. BLOGGING. Seriously. I have like started blogging a long time a go. I started and stop. Started and stop. Due to that. I have to re-register and I have like 3 blogs in which I totally forgot their password. Me think this is my 4th blog.....or is it the 5th? It couldn't be 7th, right? 

5. GYM & HEALTHY EATING. Yes. No jokes. I have to devote myself to exercising and good eating habits. I want to be healthy when I am in my forties and fifties and for as long as I live and walk on the face of this Earth! I mean. I am gonna be wealthy and I don't want to be unable to spend my wealth and not being able to do my dreams. And not being able to do God's works. Now that, is a real killer! I am responsible for my own health. 

6. SLEEP EARLY. No explanations. Everyone know its essential.

Now, I couldn't at the moment think of anymore to add. Oops..it's past my time of prayer. Me and God has an appointment. :-)  Just to let you guys know, Josh, me and my lil' bro is gonna watch "Salt" tommorow. Crossing my fingers. I DO NOT want to waste my money on a lame movie.